I
went in for my third attempt--an IVF because it was a fresh donor egg opposed
to a frozen egg, on July 17th!
I tried to remain distantly optimistic after the
first two losses. Emotionally it has become overwhelming. I can't believe that I
have persevered emotionally. Physically, my body is shot to shit because of the
fluctuation in hormones--don't forget that when we are getting ready for a
transfer--FET or IVF, building the lining is key. The way we do this is by
shooting me up with Estradiol and Progesterone. The shots start a daily a few
weeks prior and continue until 10 weeks in to pregnancy. I have never made it
that far, so I wouldn't know.
Anyhow,
my emotions are rampant and unbearable--I do not know what to do with myself on
most days. I feel extreme highs and even more drastic lows. I cry all of the
time. I was watching Finding Nemo and was balling--it the resolution. I was
surfing through an episode of Hoarders and lost it. Dangerous times in my
household. The lovar has been as support as he can be, but he stays quiet most
of the time. Poor guy!
And
so, I pray that these two embryos will grow into my babies.
God,
I have dreamed about it for so long now that it doesn't even seem possible.
Hi there,
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad to have found someone who is also going through the same thing as me. I've read through your posts and it feels good to know I'm not alone and yes As sad and as lonely as that sounds, it's the bitter honest truth. They tell us 1 in 1000 will get it but I thought there would be more of us out there talking about it.
Anyway, I wanted to let you know you don't have very much information up. What English speaking country your from, when you were diagnosed, if they miss diagnosed you first
I just had a FET two weeks ago and the pregnancy didn't take. I'm lost. It's such a sorrow filled road and it's impossible not to feel all alone. I have gone back to my obsessive tendencies of scouring the web on an attempt to find every bit of information I can find, as if I will miraculously put the pieces together and find the cure for POF. And it's true, so few people are talking about it.
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